Well its been awhile..

Ok been a while since i blogged.Well where do I began.I’m a lil over 3weeks out from surgery.Lets start from surgery it was 080712 WOW.. My surgery lasted a very long time it took over 5.5 hrs but there was no complications per the surgeon.Only thing I really remember is waking up in the recovery room.OMG was I in pain.The worse pain I had ever experienced.but they gave me pain medicine in my iv and i was in and out.Within about 2 hrs they moved me to a room.They had a cath in me the first night which was gd because getting up was very painful.I also had a morphine pump which would light up when it was time for meds I would hit it and my husband said knock out.They did get me up to walk the first night which was painful but I had a walker so it wasnt too bad.They took the cath out nxt day and then I was using the bathroom on my own Well with hubbys help.I stayed in the hospital from tuesday-friday the first day I could have liquids at all only these wet sponges i could put in my mouth to wet it.second day the liquid diet begin again they brought 2 kinds of crystal lite unjury protein powder and jello..omg everything was so hard to get down water and ice was my best friend.It was all i ever wanted.I kept a dry mouth constant but nurse said was prob the meds.Thursday they took me off pump and started giving me oral pain meds.The doc would come in once a day and chk incisions.I also had a drainage tube on  my right side that they drained several times a day.I also had a inner drainage tube on left side.I had the surgery in Nashville which was a 3hr drive from home so when i was discharged we stayed in a hotel.I was very uncomfortable and the drive home was rough the next day.I slept alot when I came home and took pain meds every 4 hrs.The doc sent me home with prev acid,pain meds.I found getting fluids dwn was hard at times and i still struggle.I also came home with the drain in me.It was removed at my one week follow up.Now i have two open wounds the one that the drain was removed its just washed with soap and water and bandaged each day the other has to be cleaned with 2 long qtips and peroxide 2 day and then bandaged its deep and really sore still. There are other small incisions with surgical tape but i don’t have to do anything to them but wash myself in shower.I hear alot of people say they have energy and feel gd but I have been really weak and tired.I’m going write a diff entry later regarding stages of eating..ugh that’s a story all by itself.Its getting easier but has been a very hard journey.I don’t regret it at all tho.Also I want to add that I have lost 19lbs.

Its been a week today…Surgery in 2 days…

Well its been a week today since I started my liquid diet.It has gotten much much easier.I just drank my meals protein shakes along with sugar free jello,carbmaster yogurt,sugar-free Popsicles and broth.My surgery is 2 days away.I’m super nervous but also very excited about my new beginning.Ive lost 11lbs in a week an already feel much better.I cant imagine what I’m going feel like when its 50 or 75lbs.Ive actually lost 43lbs since i started my journey about 4 months ago.eating a low calorie diet that the dietitian gave me through my surgeons office.Ive accomplished a lot already I didn’t think I could do and Ive had some struggles but Im here.I’ve made it and its only the beginning for me.Ive listed pics of the different shakes I’ve been drinking and the yogurt.I start a clear liquid only after midnight no more protein shakes well least not the chocolate ones I love.I’m going buy Isopure clear no carb already mixed will post a pick of them too.They are expensive tho but  I only need 1.5 a day for the first week and week 2 i can go back to my other protein shakes.Then week 3 blended food..WOW that one is going be different.Well just wanted to update prob will not be back on here till after surgery.So keep me in Ur thoughts an prayers.I promise to keep it real through my journey the good and the bad.

Day 5..

I know I said I was going to wait till the weekend but today has been ROUGH…I’ve realized no matter who u have with u in this process Ur really alone in the end. Its rough I have been nauseous all day just wanted to eat so many times but didn’t. I stayed strong but it was hard.Also realized no one really gets the struggle till they have been through it and Ive also realized that I let others affect my mood way too much.Way too much..Came home early from work today cause I felt so bad.Tommorrow is my last working day before surgery.Well keep me in ur prayers everyone.